
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.
Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave
I rise
I rise
I rise.
Maya Angelou
Her words sum up how i'm feeling right now. It's funny I can listen to a person talking about coping with a painful time in their lives and how they came through it. We never pay much attention to the painful part. We just hear how they came through it unscathed and everything is alright now. Bad times make you very aware of who you are, who is in your corner. Who really has your back. I will totally remember that. With a very bitter taste in my mouth? No. I tend to take care of those who need me even if they do not deserve it. But I will remember. It will be there slowly killing me, eating me alive like a cancer spreading silently just waiting to consume me. Wish I were one who could just let things go, but I am not that big a person. I am flawed. I am human
This is where I live right now somewhere between sorrow and delight. Everyday is different. I never know where I will land along that scale.............. Enough already.